Monday, May 21, 2012

rage

I have a lot of anger for several different aspects of life right now, which makes it unsafe to blog and unsafe for others to be around me or piss me off in any way.  I did however enjoy a great weekend wedding in a different state - seeing good friends from college does a lot to disarm the anger bomb.

I'm hoping this week will resolve some things.  Stay tuned.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

waiting

Status: waiting. 

For more senior scientists to read manuscripts.  For more senior scientists to get their shit together.  For more senior scientists to respond to email.  For more senior scientists to place any of the above as equally important as other things they're up to, before they go on vacation.

For funding decisions.  For feedback on rejected grant proposals.  For pilot data that would make the receipt of these grants much more likely.  For permission to sample museum collections.

For students to come get help.  For students to do their work.  For students to get their independent project disasters out of my lab.

For my fourth-year review feedback.  For constructive criticism.  For action items based upon a recent external review.  For tenure. 

For a salary that would let me buy the house I want to buy.  For the ability to live outside of town, since town makes me crazy.  For a sustainably employed husband.

Belated spoiler alert: I'm disgruntled and whining today. 

Today: tired of the perpetual waiting.